Salam Ramadhan

Selamat Berpuasa everyone..

Looking forward to go back to Melaka this Friday.
MIL is gathering all of hubs siblings, nephews/nieces, cucu's for buka puasa gathering on saturday followed by solat terawih berjemaah.
Its fun when everyone gathers together. I don't usually get that chaosness with my family as
my immediate family excluding myself only consist of 4 members..


This ramadhan, hubs and I went for our 1st solat terawih together with my family at the mosque nearby my house.Yes, last year we didn't get to go together.. Felt nikmatnya having a family and a husband.Can't wait for us to have kids.

Indahnya. Its been a little over a year. But I feel the love grows with time.
Life has never been this beautiful. Syukur Alhamdulillah.

1 Year Anniversary

Lamaaaanya tak update blog.
Its not that i've been busy or anything, ntah just didnt have the mood to update.
On the 16th of July, our marriage hit the 1 year mark.
Syukur Alhamdulillah.
Felt like it was only yesterday i was getting all dolled up for my solemnisation.
To commemorate our 1st year, we went away to Bangkok for 3 nights, which was so much fun.
The night of our anniversary we went for the Calypso Lady Boy Cabaret Show.OH MY, the lady boy's were so pretty, flawless skin, jaw dropping silhouette, and most obvious of all are the gedikness.But one thing remain significantly obvious (that they are in fact boys) are their voices.
Since the last time i went to Bangkok with my family which was like 5 years back, we went to this amazing thai cultural show which is called the Siam Niramit. I insisted that for this trip,i wanted my husband to experience the show .So for anyone planning to visit Bangkok in the near future, i truly recommend that u try to fit in this show into your itinerary.
U bet I was right because hubs loved the show.truly magical and indescribable.He was in awe from the beginning right to the end of it.
For the Siam Niramit show, we took the package that included hotel transfers, buffet dinner and the show. So upon arriving at the Thai Cultural Village at 6pm, we had our early dinner and just walked around the place. There were elephants. There were men and women dressed in costumes.
The guests were also able to buy food to feed the elephants which we did many times because as usual we got over excited. and, when no other guests bothered to ride on the elephants which came with a small fee, me and hubs were laughing hysterically while riding and balancing ourselves on the elephant and at the same time posing for the camera when the elephant guardian helped us take our pictures.

Below are some of the acts from the Siam Niramit show. I promise you that what u see from the picture is exactly how it turns out at the show. with all the beautiful colors and flying acts and all.

Restrengthening ties

Had so much fun with dear friends for a friend's baby shower yesterday evening.
Managed to drive back home from Melaka, bought bread n tuna on the way home, prepared sandwiches, got ready and waited for a friend to pick me up.

The 2nd time mommy to be was (i hope) surprised with our small get together.It was just great to see my friends.Remember i was complaining that i hardly see my friends anymore?so yesterday's baby shower was the revival of my almost dead social life.

Mother's day is coming up in May. If i'm not mistaken its the 2nd sunday in May right? My cousin's and i are planning to take our mom's out for lunch.but since some of us arent free on Mother's day, we decided to bring forward and celebrate our moms on the 30th of April.
This is another thing i'd like to work on.Spending more time with cousins and aunts.
Now that almost all are married and some with kids, we hardly see each other besides the occasional functions held by relatives or weddings.

we are definitely psyched and looking forward for our joint celebration.

Ikan keli

Picture from google

Ikan keli and my family, we go waayy back.

I'm frustrated that my hubby managed to influence me to stop eating the fish.
Growing up with a dad and grandparents from Negeri Sembilan, masak lemak cili api ikan keli salai with belimbing was one of our favourite dishes.
Just thinking about it now brings back memories of my arwah wan.She used to cook a killer masak lemak cili api.Literally killing-upsetting our tummy because it was so spicy and of course delicious.Eat it with a side dish of tempoyak, that made the simple meal so puas hati.A meal that leaves u sweating and drinking loads of water.

Through out the 8 years i've been with my husband before we got married.He would give me the occasional look whenever i put ikan keli on my plate when we go out for nasi campur.Slowly it got to me.Slowly i've opted for some other fish if ever there was ikan keli as one of the variety of dishes available at a shop.

Fast forward to 2011.I have stopped enjoying ikan keli entirely.
I blame my husband for it.Just because he doesnt fancy the fish, he had to influence me too.No fair.
I'm not being true to my origins.HEHEH.

Socialising?

I feel so bad for i have once questioned why a friend who got married then later just hardly turns up for any get togethers/events anymore.I remember comparing her to my other friends who would still always join our events/get togethers despite being married and have babies.

For now i understand.Nowadays, i hardly have time to socialise with friends be it for lunch, dinner, shopping etc..I feel that i dont have the luxury of time for my friends anymore.And i miss hanging out..
After getting married, weekends for me revolves around being with my husband, since we only get to be with each other from friday to monday. So i pour my time and energy solely for him,be it in melaka or subang.My weekends are about preparing meals, doing his laundry and being his siamese twin/other half which i miss out during the weekdays.I dont have the ample time or energy to go meet up with friends during the weekends anymore. U may ask ask 'how about weekdays?' Well, i'll summarise my weekdays: work, eat, bathe, play with my cat,korean drama,watch movies on my laptop and sleep.I dont do socialising on a weekday.

Not that i'm complaining,dont get me wrong i love being married and all but if i could just make/find time to be with friends and catch up on things.Then that would be awesome.

Much needed time off

Hubby has been rather bummed with work this past two months, and through out the time , i have behaved very very well.not complaining much about the lack of attention/time spent given for me.Usually if he gets too caught up with work to even call during the day, I would definitely show and give him a piece of my mind when he does call later in the evening/night.But instead i gave him tremendous support and never ending reminders that i believe in his capabilities and dreams.

Finally after the gruelling period , i felt as if every ounce of patience i had to endure was worth it when i saw a picture of him sitting with the chief minister in a function/memorandum signing that he organised last week from the chief minister's fb page.This is a beginning of something he has always dreamt for.So hopefully this year would be OUR year.Insyallah.

After the event, he promised a short getaway for the weekend.Believing that i truly earned it, we had to make do with a one nights stay at a hotel in Kl since it wasn't worth the drive to Penang or Singapore for a far too short trip. The hotel was situated 5 minutes walk away from Pavilion.So immediately after checking in, we walked to Pavilion, had lunch and spent the whole day shopping/window shopping.I had to insist that we return to the hotel because my feet were killing me.After soaking myself in the bathtub, and hubby getting his quick nap, we went for dinner at one of my fav seafood place-Hokkaido.

Initially we planned to catch a movie after dinner (again at Pavilion), but we were just too full and exhausted that we opted to watch the live band performing at the lounge of our hotel lobby. One glass of fruit punch later, we adjourned to our room for the night.The next day upon checking out, we went to starhill and again pavilion and last but not least sunway pyramid on our way back to subang.

What a way to spend the weekend.I am one happy lady!BUT no matter what i get or buy wont be able to fill in the void i feel in my heart whenever i think about IT.

I guess hubby has been trying to cheer me up and lift up my spirit since the whole miscarriage incident.Rezeki comes in different ways.For now i have to be thankful for the other rezeki's i have in life, as Allah knows best.
This glitch will not dampen my hopes on having an offspring with the love of my life of 9 years.Our time will come soon.Insyallah.

Grieving

NO longer pregnant.
I guess it wasnt our time yet..
Not allowed to blog about it as hubby specifically told me not to.


Grieving over our lost, but optimistic and still hopeful for the next one.
Took the whole week off last week and managed to fully rest at home.
Socks, no cold drinks, and selected food .

On a different story all together:
My dear grandmother passed away sunday morning around subuh at the hospital.

Arwah wan complained of stomach ache last thursday, so my uncle picked her up from our kampung in Tampin and brought her to my aunt's hospital in Kampung Baru.Wan was admitted and doctors were doing all sorts of examination on her to try and figure out whats causing the pain.

Mom and Dad managed to visit wan at the hospital on saturday morning.From what my mom described, Wan's condition was serious.That saturday night my dad wanted to stay with wan at the hospital to give my aunt who has been staying with wan at the hospital from thursday a break. Dad left at around 8pm, my mom did ask me and my brother if we wanted to visit wan that night or the following day.I insisted on going that night. So we went..Wan was very frail and weak..but she was talking..my brother massaged her head..put damped towel on her forehead and we tried to get her to drink. which we managed to..after spending about an hour there,We left at around 10.30pm..

6 am, dad called the house.. i immediately woke up and heard mom's conversation..Wan's not breathing...we got up and rushed to the hospital.. but about 20 min's later, dad called mom again to tell us that wan passed away..
i cried in the car.thank god boy came back the night before so he was with us .he actually wanted to visit wan that sunday as he didnt make it in time to subang when we left for the hospital that saturday night.i cant believe i just saw her that night.. i cant believe that night was the last time i held her hand and kissed her..My brother and i were the last cucu to see her alive, and dad got to be with her when she passed.

The most heartbreaking part that morning was when my atok arrived to the hospital..He cried upon looking at arwah Wan. he was saying sayang kenapa tinggalkan abang..and that he forgave her for everything and he asked for forgiveness...My atok has always been very dependent on wan.wan has always been the stronger one.it was soo sad.. a husband losing his wife..atok is just so heartbroken.

Jenazah arwah wan di mandikan at the kampung baru mosque opposite the hospital and was also disembahyang kan . after that, jenazah arwah wan was taken back to Tampin.All of us packed our stuffs and went back to Tampin..After all that came to my kampung house to give their last respects to arwah Wan. once again her jenazah was brought to the kampung's mosque for prayers.After that jenazah arwah wan dikebumikan at the kampungs tanah perkuburan after zohor..

Atok broke down a few times through out that day.We all helped console him and just giving him assurance that he will be alright, and that we are here for him..From what i heard atok will no longer be living permanently in our kampung house.He will be staying with all of us from time to time..i pray that atok will be strong and still has the will to continue on. Boy and i were touched by how loving and caring atok and wan were towards each other..
i hope my marriage will be like theirs..amin.